You know honestly, I hate people. I hate their little quirks & idiosyncracies, their inconsistencies & their emotions. Most of all their emotions. Because they cause them to do stupid things, say stupid shit.

I can't be around that shit. Navigating emotional mindfields? Not for me. Like, I'm talking about, "can't step foot in the borough of Brooklyn, because I had a bad relationship there that I refuse to tell you about, but anyway I will sabotage any and all attempts to get me to the borough of Brooklyn". I'm talking about, "my father was a drug addict, but i refuse to tell you, so when you make innocent and laughing jokes about 'crackheads', i will get all sulky and distant with you, even though you (supposedly) have no idea why".

i could go on and on but i won't. this is making me tired. i can't deal with my own emotions, why the hell do i have to deal with yours? and it's getting worse not better. wtf is going on. is Mars in retrograde???